I think people are avoiding me... *sigh* I know I am scary... thats what happens due to stress... Stress = insane... the stress recently is just getting to me... I'm doing too many stupid things coz of stress... no I'm not doing drugs or smoking... but I'm making myself bleed... The sight of my blood flowing makes me feel less stressed... I don't know why... maybe coz it makes me think I'll die... so I don't feel stressed anymore... I feel as if there is no one to turn to... I don't know... people tell me to stop but... I can't help it... it's become a bad habit that I can't break... TT_TT I need to stop stressing... I need some anti-stress pills before I end up dead or in a mental hospital... TT_TT Stress is one of my worst enemies... next to depression... I can help it... TT_TT

The english exam today... *sighz* I think I failed.... because I KNOW I didn't do well... TT_TT The essay I wrote was so lame and full of BS~ The essay had to be 6-8 pages.. dammit... how am I suppose to make it that long with out BSing? >__<;; It's not like it's an easy essay... I wish it was... out of 30 and 15% of my mark... last time I did an essay I BARELY PASSED~ TT_TT I'm so screwed.... TT_TT